Some times I crave to be alone.....longing to be walking along a hiking trail with no sounds except those that nature provides. Lying out under the dark moonless sky only lit with the twinkling stars ...curled up in the bed between cool crisp clean sheets after tidying the whole house..... me and a solar light that flickers like a candle and in the distance a coyote or two yipping in excitement...
or even to find that space in my own mind so that no matter who or what surrounds me I am where I want to be....alone...
But then there are those times I feel so alone. So lonely . I can be out for a walk with three cats 4 dogs and a yard full of deer, sitting with family enjoing a meal, driving down the highway singing a song with hubby, in a crowd of strangers at a theatre..... yet so alone....
Lonely ....can see me sad, scared , lost , anxious, depressed, hopeless
or being alone can enlighten me, comfort me, renew me and revive me.
Tonight I am Lonely and I don't want to be......
I have a shield around me one that is preventing anyone or anything from entering my space.......my being my essence..
Is this a choice? I am not certain that it is....
I am lonely tonight and for now that is ok.
You cannot be lonely if you like the person you're alone with.
